I used to think I could only be spiritual at church, cemented in religion. But I didn't always understand how to interact with my spirituality because of the rules. In every aspect of my life, religion ruled and spirituality was a holy ghost.
"People who’ve had any genuine spiritual experience always know that they don’t know. They are utterly humbled before mystery. They are in awe before the abyss of it all, in wonder at eternity and depth, and a love, which is incomprehensible to the mind."
I've changed my mind about spirituality.
Spirituality isn't a tangible thing; it's mysterious, and it means something different to every person. The truest form I have found to connect to my spirit is when I cry, willingly releasing whatever has its hold on me. In my tears, my spirit's yearnings are amplified, not because of sadness or loss, but because I am connected with myself.
My spirituality is my seeking. When I wonder about God and engage with The Universe, when I ponder the meaning of life by asking questions, and when those same questions go unanswered, that is how I define spirituality.
"All great spirituality teaches about letting go of what you don’t need and who you are not. Then, when you can get little enough and naked enough and poor enough, you’ll find that the little place where you really are is ironically more than enough and is all that you need. At that place, you will have nothing to prove to anybody and nothing to protect."
I have been in the camp that believes spirituality is greater than religion. But I'm beginning to understand that spirituality is within and without religion. For some, religion provides a sort of guide on how to discover and communicate with the spirit. For others, for me, spirituality is found outside of the box, scribbled inside the margins, colored on the other side of the lines - communing with all of creation. Spirituality is fluid and exists in whatever space we allow it to, whenever we are simply being ourselves.
Spirituality is personal, intimate; it's me in my truest form, my wholeness, and it's experience and practice. It is my subconscious - my intuition - and my unconscious - my dreams. And it's quite difficult to describe.
"Spirituality is to humanity what flexibility is to a rubber band. The spirit is the essence of our human nature. And what is a rubber band if it's not flexible?"
Mat von Ehrenkrook